Have you ever had something spinning around in your head endlessly, like an ethereal alien sprite with a message of enlightenment trying to escape your brain? It keeps you awake at night and during the day you're uncommunicative because you're zoned out meditating on something elusively cogent and weighty. The only cure is to write it down. And as you write it's like the fog clearing or the misted window being wiped to provide clarity of vision. That's why I wrote. I'm sorry if it's no clearer for you, but it helped me a lot.